-Twelve- 12th of May

I'm.. afraid.. Yet really no one to talk to(Its always been like that, no one to talk to). responds I'm getting from Daisy, I'm playing games, I don't have time for you. When I am down, Don't disturb me or I'll 'kill' you. I'm too sensitive to notice these stuff. I'm too sticky.. I lost.. confidence in everything I do. I have to find it back. Fast.. Or I'll never succeed in anything. Maybe I'm wrong to give him so much attention. I was right, I don't have luck in these. Guardian angels don't exists get over it. I was lucky enough to pull through things in my life is bcuz of my own effort.-

-You Suck- is mostly best for me now. Yea.. I suck. I'm about to get tired of these. He used to said, I dont need to be jealour of my sister having so many bfs, because I have him, duh.. I don't really think so. I'm getting tired now. Msging to his phone getting less responds. Desprate to hear his voice and cry silenty when his voice runs like soft music in my ears. I'm tired of this. I'm not a perfect person. But there are things I wish I could improve. I have countless bad habits and some am too shy to state.

Normally I could cry in my room automatically. But now, I evolved i think, I cant cry as easy as I could. This is suffering.

p/s:

• Still the same
• nobody gets how I feel
• nobody gets what i think of
• nobody to talk to.. as always
• I know I'm not the best for you
• All I want to do is love you but I'm the only one to blame
• I know I've been selfish
• I know I've been foolish
• But I'll do better

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in
Because it's cold outside
Share with me the secrets that you kept in
Because it's cold inside...

-JW-