I'm Back At It (Work)

I've started in my first job and it's been a year now.
I started out a very motivated hard working staff.
Until one day my boss decided to exploit that.
Everything has been down hill for me since that happened.

I used to be excited getting up everyday and getting ready for work. Excited and motivated to get my task completed and be appreciated.

Now everything is just dark as if I saw the alternate reality of what was actually going on in the office.

"You are just a staff paid to do your work."
Constantly replayed in my brain. Honestly I do not need that reminder, but its been in my head every time I see a senior of mine, or. THAT BOSS. I just cringe, look away, if I was smiling and I saw him, my smile would fade out in like less than a millisecond.

I feel very unappreciated, its like if they know you can work, they push more on your head. So lay low like her.

I'm also trying to understand why would my colleagues pretend that we are a family but the truth is you're just their colleague. They couldn't care less if you got sick or hurt.

I was naive to let them in my heart, let them be my friend. And now look where's that gotten me.
I take things too seriously and I'm learning how not to, the hard way.

"Shrug it off."

Easier said than done, but I'm doing my best trust me.