Say Lazy

I MISS SECONDARY SCHOOL.

I was walking back from the train station today.

And it was the time where my secondary school morning class students finishes school.

I saw them walking pass me.

And I thought,

they are so free now.

not much to worry about.

Everything is ready and set for them.

You won't have problem finding your class,

and you meet same students everyday.

Unlike me now,

its different groups of people to mix with.

Seriously I don't like it.

Someone once call me anti-social.

So I'm very sensitive with that word.

That reminds me of something a girl said during english class.

I forget what was it about,

but she said anti-social.

And the other girls start laughing in my group.

Though I forced a smile.

I don't think it was funny.

Cuz I'm kinda going through it.

And it doesn't feel as if it was funny.

In secondary school.

I can skip class whenever I want,

ignore homework given.

Copy last minute if it was important.

Well not anymore,

I keep remembering about the price paid to study in college.

I can't even be lazy anymore.

Not even a bit.

If I wanted to play a game now,

I would get angry, my temper strikes,

because something is telling me to go revise what I've learned.

It was really really really annoying.

I saw free...will in the students that walked passed me today.

ahh... How i wish I could go back.

But that way I would never age ==

Life is so. complicated.

Anyway, my allergies are back again.

I was free from my stupid medication for 2 weeks,

as now the school pressure peers in,

I start getting them again.

Well I think that was what caused them to come back.

I've been sleeping early these days.

So lack of sleeping wasn't the cause of my allergies back.

yyyyyahhhhhhh...

JW