Rather than me talking so much and people who thinks i'm trying to be dramatic.
And for this YH.
You had your chance, i gave in my feelings for you.
Cried for you. Understand you. Cope with your stress.
Even when I'm also in stress studying and going through a hard time.
I got sick of your old school consolation.
It annoys me. Because after you console me,
you start to act as if you did what you should now I
have to repay back what you did in 10 times.
Example, I was trying to write a program when I don't even know
how to program. You come and say everything is alright. I can do it.
Blah blah blah. Then, you find something to fight about,
example, me going out with friends. Then you get angry and crazy.
And make me the one to console you the other way round.
You say you're a man? Sorry, you're a kid. A child. Who is selfish.
I was trying to write this shit program and you make so much noise?
When i don't even care to look at the phone. You start sending cursing messages to my phone.
Just to see my phone flash gives me the pressure.
You don't stress me out?
YOU STRESS THE HELL OUT OF ME YOU PIECE OF SHIT.
If i continue to ignore you,
you will start talking about how poor your family is,
how sad your life is,
but you never once said you would think of a way to solve it.
Self pity is not a way to solve things, KID.
You blame your father, you blame your mother,
you blame your sister, you blame your brother,
this is not what a man will do.
I've never hear once that you will say that you were wrong.
You think you are so right, everybody on earth owes you.
"I tried. You didn't I'm done."This was sooooooooo in my mind,
i got this from facebook.
I tried to cope with the stress you pressure on me
plus the stress from my school.
then again you tell me all about your work stress and
how your future is so dull.
I understand, i said i can cope.
You said we were of different worlds,
you should have not said that,
because to me whatever is said cannot be taken back.
This is not a game for a kid like you,
whom speak words only for your own comfort,
or saying it just to make you feel better.
This is not a theater, not a drama,
there is no script to it,
where you just say the words and get over it,
everything said will be printed in my head,
and judge as what type of person you are.
This is not a game,
when i say it's done, it's done.
You make me so helpless,
so helpless I couldn't think of anything to do.
I judge you wrongly.
You weren't the man I actually saw.
You were a girl hiding behind your mask.
You don't want to wake up on how cruel your world is,
you say i'm strong, you can't be like me.
When you say you can't, you meant that you don't want to.
Because it's tiring, it's difficult.
Then heed this again,
you're not a girl,
you're a man. If you continue to hide from everything the world has to bring to you,
you will be a girl forever,
you will stay like this forever,
if you had children,
they will be like you,
they won't fight for a future.
Now it's all over,
you can't get over me.
You regret the words you scream in my face.
You said before, that I think that you don't have the rights to be my boyfriend,
But that was all you saying,
I've never even said once that I think you have no rights,
you have no class,
yes now after what i SAW,
the part of you,
screaming,
shouting,
I understand, and I agreed to what you said.
Never put bad thoughts into people's mind,
especially me, I keep them. For verification later.
You kept sending me messages,
but I can tell you, the more you do this the more I can see
how desperate you are. Sorry my compassion has been eaten,
digested by you,
long ago when we were what we were.
Enough is enough.
I'm telling you,
You have no more chance, understand that.
So stop sending more and more messages to me.
To let me know that I'm still in your mind,
I have to be crude.
And yes, i'm sticking to my decision of BREAKING UP.
Everytime i think of the things you did and said.
I am glad it is over.
OVER AND OUT.
JW
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