31.5.2011 2224

*sigh*
my dad said he will bring me to lao yat to see the tablet suitable.
but then later when I told him about the brand I wanted he said they might not have it there.
then he cancel the trip there.

...
I wanted it so badly..

JW

0042 31.5.2011

Hmmm.
Her name is Jamie Lostein.
Weird... name..
=.=

I commented on her page today.
I thought she was Indonesian.
But ending up asking if she's a Malaysian.
XD
And.. surprisingly =.=
She is a malaysian.
ahh.. so weird. she definitely don't look like one.
Just a malay girl.

And I was reading ZE's blog awhile ago.
Out of curiosity what would she write in there.
I remember the last time I read,
there was a load of crappy conversations in there.
I mean. =.= do you actually remember every line of your conversation with others?
I don't even want to read 'em!
It was like :

-start-

Noob: hey are you stupid?


Stupid: No! are you noob?


Noob: no! stupid!


Stupid: yes!


Noob: NO!

-end-

=.=
who reads em?
I wouldn't. =.= honestly.
I was thinking about something these days.
Am I... intimidating?
... Hopefully yes.. and hopefully no.
haha

Because..
after reading ZE's blog.
I feel like confronting her if anything in her blog of her life is true.
Like a good BF having fancy cars.
And auditioning in some place.
And the weird weird names of people she knows in her blog.
If it was true..
I said. IF!
where are the pictures?
dancers love taking pictures.
they love to hang out with friends a lot.
then there comes the pictures and funny videos.

WHERE ARE THEY?

but i better keep my mouth shut and ignore this fantasy dreamer.
although it really bugs me to scold her in the face sometimes.
live your life.
why create a fantasy that doesn't exists.
ignorant.
we don't even know how big the world is yet.
and yet you sit there writing stories that seem true/untrue.

I mean.. Everyone has their own fantasy. Yes,

I, myself.
Love to make my hair like the characters in japanese cartoons I watch and mangas i read.
But always fail to do so.
But these are real.

I love to pretend I'm up in the stage with billions of fans enjoying my singing.
And I make theater actions and poses where the crowd goes wild under my feet.
holding my plastic bottle of water as a microphone.

I love to act as I'm very bossy.
I act classy.
I play cool.

My fantasies.

I don't make stories of my life if they aren't true.
Wake up ZE. Before you cross the line and piss me off.
AGAIN.

Gah...
I feel like slapping her and screaming WAKE UP sometimes.

I'm suffering from insomnia.
I can't stay asleep these days.
Even if I tried to sleep.
I lie down on my bed waiting.
Then my allergies attacks occur.
It gets worse the longer time it took to sleep.
...
Someone help.
I don't know what to do to make me sleep.
I'm taking way too much doses of my medicine.
Year after year its just medicine and medicine.
My kidney's gonna rot some day.
*sigh*

2001-2006 : Eczema + Allergy
2007-2010 : Allergy + Partial eczema
2011 : Allergy + Insomnia + Partial eczema

=.= ...
Save me.
I'm drowning in my own medicine.
Help me.
I'm innocent.

I can't eat sea food.
Prawns... Or my allergy attacks.
Some time of river fishes.

I have to be so careful while eating.
I can't let any sauce touch the sides of lips.
Or they'd crack and it really hurts.

Well at least..
I don't imagine I can draw well.
I can draw at least 1/2 of perfect drawing (as manga drawings in poster form) I hope.
I want a tablet... Oh god.. I want one. PLEASE...
I'm gonna get lead poisoning soon if I don't get a tablet fast.
Every time my hands go all black after drawing.
=.=

Editing Pictures Are so Fun.

JW

30.5.2011 1123

I've found a wonderful song yesterday.
Written by J'Lostein.
我觉得。。
她唱歌很。。没有力。哈哈。
But this song call saviour..
I liked it alot.
So i printed out the lyrics she provided and the chords.

And before I could realize.
I was already playing the whole song out.
COOL!
I didn't know I could do that until yesterday.
I'll definitely train more on that song till there's no more errors.
Then maybe post it on youtube.
haha. If I can la har. XD

Her songs she created are mostly very simple chords.
Mostly in C major.
So it's easy for me to catch up.
Haha..

Ahh..
I shouldn't have read Noblesse.
I stopped for quite a few chapters.
Now the comic is stucked in a very exciting part!
And i need to wait for the next part. =.=
Nice comic after all.
XD

Holiday Starts Officially-TOday. =D

JW

2242 28.5.2011

Burhhh....
I'm so tired... =.=
I went to taylor's today.
For a one day campus life or something.

The first half was wonderful.
But not the next half.
The second half was...
Ah hem..
DISAPPOINTING.
=.=

Not what I wanted at all.
The computer was crappy.
The teacher seems more blur than I am.


It's like the workshop is directly telling me.
Do not come to TAYLOR'S TO STUDY GRAPHICS.
Okie doke~
I'll take that advice. =D

My dad say I shouldn't complain so much because it was free.
Gah...
Then what's the point asking us to go.
Isn't it to promote their college?
You call this promote? =.=
'No sir.'

Anyway.
During the first half we had this 'Amazing Race'
I went home early because I was having this major headache.
I could feel my head throbbing,
as if my heart was merged with my brain.
Guh......

Then I met this guy there, (ZM)
apparently he was the first person to talk to me in the group I was in,
after being seperated with CL.
3 of us had lunch together later on.
And we even sneak to be in the same group. XD
He kinda reminds me of a friend of mine.
WT. From primary school.
Ahh.. I miss him..

So i went home early along with CL.
Then I had my fast dinner bathed and jumped on my bed and went to slumber.
I wasn't feeling well. AT ALL.

Then just a moment ago,
I saw ZM added me on fb.
Then he told me our team actually won the amazing race.
COOL.

Our team actually started out as the MOST not cooperating team.
Our cheer was like... 'huh? wh-what?'
Our team name was =.=
Ah hem.. Team name : 'I have no idea'
Which was what CL said. And the  T.leader took that as our team name.
We were quite pro.
We ended up cooperating with each other when the race start.
Helping each other out.

There was one of the activities inside the race,
It gave us a list of items.
we must have them either in picture form,or item.
I was impressed that our team mates have ALL the items.
It was like- SO EASY - for us.
Haha..cool..

But I didn't get the prize, CL as well.
We went home early.
Ahh.. I was my fault.
I felt abit bad now asking to go home.
*sigh*

Ahh... nevermind.

I was so ready to play with graphic characters.
Nah..
The computer they provided destroyed what I longed for.
Pui.

THIS is GRAPHIC!

Instead taylors gave something... =.=

else..

DISAPPOINTING!

This was what I wanted!

GRAPHICAL PAINTING!

BEAUTIFUL!

*sigh* maybe I misunderstood the workshop's name.

They shouldn't put funny names.

Can't they just get straight to the point of the title?

Guh..

JW

2024 20.5.2011

..
Not much of a mood today.
Well it's not I did badly in my exam.
I'm satisfied with it.
I even have my right arm sprained.
Maybe I wrote too much and too fast.

There was no electricity just now.
For at least 3 hours I think.
Gah...
Blame it on my sis. and me.
She was on her comp last night.
I was in the room with the aircond on.
It was 3am, she haven't came up to turn it off.
And I was so tired I couldn't make myself to get up.
But I got up to turn it off,
I couldn't sleep with me worrying about that sis.

The fuse burnt btw.
3 hours no electricity.
I had my dinner with candles around me.,
For the very first time!
haha..
and bath in the toilet with a candle on.
Feels weird though.

But alas..
The electricity is back!
BWAAHHAHAHAHHAHA!

My sis got a new phone.
Quite expensive.
My dad got it for her.
But I still don't have the tablet I wanted...
T.T
*sigh*
Maybe that's why I felt ..
down?
when i saw my sis fiddling with her new phone.

Ahh.. I don't know what to do now..
Watch anime?
Nah.. I don't have the mood.
Draw?
Maybe..

JW

19.5.2011 11.47pm

Ahh...
I'm tired..
Just finish revising physics.
I'm very proud of myself by the way!
First time of me studying for 3 hours straight!
XD
I so guai~ en en~
=.= self praise.

My head hurts...
I was having my allergy attack again while I was studying.
And I didn't stop to lie down or anything.
I just kept on studying studying studying.
Aww.. I'm so proud of myself.
I never done that before.
^^ bwahahahahahhaha!!

Today something really weird happened. o.O
Thought it was nothing bad. hehe.
You see, every morning at my school.
We students have to sit on the stupid tar road, so call : 'tapak perhimpunan'
Means 'assembly site'.
The ground was wet, and students were suppose to bring newspapers to..
practically.. sit on them, so that our bums won't get wet.

So..
I'm the type who doesn't bring newspapers to school.
JUST TO SIT ON THEM!
I prefer to recycle them at home.

(yesterday)
so i squatted down hugging my bag while studying for my coming exam.
lucky it was just for a while,
my legs were killing me.
It wasn't easy to squat like that and study.
My legs hurt, my muscle aches.
But i told myself to bear with it.
It'll be over soon.
It'll be over soon~
When I stood up it was quite dizzy. haha.

(present)
I did the same thing again.
But before squatting down, i looked around for a dry place to sit.
There was none.
Every where was wet.
Stupid school.
So I sighed and squatted down.
Then fished out my book to revise.
A few minutes later,
Newspapers appeared in front of my eyes!
I was shocked!
I thought.. =.=
angel?
I looked up -in-blur-state.
It was the prefect whom was placed to duty in my class every morning.
He went to get me papers, to sit.
What a nice boy, I thought.
XD
but I regreted. =.= I didn't thank him.
I was so blur I didn't know what to respond.

Hmm..
Did he really went to take for me on purpose?
Or someone else told him to?
Might be KC.
^^

Okie-doke~
I guess I'll sleep now.
But I think it'll take some time before I fall asleep.
I kept waking up between the time of 3am to 4am these days.
Then when I open my eyes.
All I see is the moon shining brightly into my room.
weird..

Ahh...
Headache.....

Wahaha~
Pig-rabbit.
Pink edit.

JW

18.5.2011 11.53pm

Fuuuuu~
I dreamt about KS today when i was taking my afternoon nap.
o.O
It was a bit awkward thinking about the dream right now.
But when I was in the dream with him,
it felt like...
happy?
comfortable?

Ahh.. I don't know.
I just like the feeling being so near him
But he... It.. ahhh...
Too embarrassed to talk about what happen in the dream.
Anyway! I can't believe I could think of us being like that!
T,T
I'm really mentally sick I think.
Swt..
Well at least it's not with that dung bag with sissy mind.
Anyway, I recently think that KS is better looking.
I told SY about it, she say no no no no no! don't fall in the trap again.
Not leng zai not leng zai!

XD

Well there's another love problem for my sis.
XD
She's going to overseas to study, soon.
But then she got too close to a weird guy.
That weird guy.. Says he might maybe falling in love with her.
And he doesn't want to have a GF, says he.
He say he's afraid he might do something in the future that will cause trouble for his GF>
My sis.. she likes him alright,
very straight forward! it's like "I LIKE YOU" is written all over her damn face.
XD But i guess he doesn't know.
Or if he does knows, he might very-possibly-pretend not to know.
Well it's hard for my sis to smile and say indirectly, yea I don't have feelings for you.
While he says he need to control their distance because they might get into a different level of relationship.
But he just kept spending time with my sis, finding chances to go out with her,
hang out with her, play with her, or just to see her.

Well I actually predicted this will happen to her.
Because before this happened,
They were having too much studies together,
seeing each other too long and too many times.
Damn.. You guys are humans!
What ya think?
You're made of flesh and bones,
you have feelings, YOU ARE HUMAN!
Of course you guys will fall for each other easily damn it.
pity..

Current fav Manga: -INUYASHA
                              -AIR GEAR
                              -NOBLESSE

JW

17.5.2011

Something weird happened yesterday.
I wonder was it a dream.
No no.. No way it's a dream.
It was real. Because it felt real.

It was 3am++
I heard.. I don't even know how to describe it.
Just weird sounds. At first it was some.. Weird horn like sound,
It's like someone blowing on a horn , shell like horn.
then creepy flute sounds suddenly came out.
I didn't dare to move.
I mean..
What was all that?
Gah...
Stupid imagination again I guess.

Seriously. What's with my brain. XD
Well it's not the first time weird stuff happened.
I remembered last time when my family was renting a house at DESA PARK CITY.
I was standard 6 I think.
I heard the same truck sound being repeated again and again.
I was really scared that time.
Then something call my name.
A lady's voice. Bluurrppp... that was so scary. I just hid under my blanket shaking.
It was like time was being repeated again and again,
like you're watching a video from a website.

Now I'm beginning to think..
Did all of that really happened,
or Did i just imagined it?
I can't figure it out.
Weird.

There was another time,
I was sneaking down to boot up my computer in the middle of the night.
I stopped for awhile outside my room's toilet,
suddenly I heard a kid laughing.
A laughter of a small kid. I can't make it out if it's a boy or girl though.
I just froze there, I slowly turn towards the direction of the laughter.
The window.
Nothing was there.
I whispered to myself some bad language.
Trying to scold 'it' away.
Doesn't matter if 'it''s a imagination or an unseen.
Just go away.

There's one more time,
I was playing some games on the computer with the lights off.
Something push.. no no.. not push. It felt more like a finger jabbing my thigh.
I slowly look down feeling scared and confused.
I can't see anything, it was too dark.
I continued to play the game in my computer.
It jabbed me again.
I was getting annoyed.
I looked down for the second time, still I can't see anything.
I kicked against the drawer under the table and said go away.
Then I continued to play the game in my comp.
It didn't disturb anymore.
phew..

So many weird things, Did i really imagine all of that?
Is it possible?
Swt...

Anyway, my stupid piece of no good brother is playing a shooting game right now.
Just beside me,
damn annoying,
bang bang bang bang.
Damn that shit head.
If he likes the sounds so much just go put on his stupid headphones and listen to them in max volume.
Sucker.

JW

15.5.2011 4.56pm

The house feels pretty empty.
Ahh.. What am I thinking.
She's just gone for a few days. =.=
Get over it already.
...
Damn. I miss her.
=.=

15.5.2011

o.O i didnt know chging the url of my blog will actually..
Make the old url as -NOT EXISTING-
COOL!
I guess he cant see my blog anymore. wahahahahahahahha!
=D
But... He still doesn't want to give my eq and wings back.
*sigh*
T.T

My stupid phone.
Was ran out of battery last night,
1.05am
=.= damn it. I wanted to charge it.
But it doesn't respond at all when I plugged the wire to it.
It's not charging!
Ahh... nevermind.
I don't need it.
But what if someone contacts me? o.O

There's this stupid dog at my back yard,
squirming and moaning all morning.
I mean. What's with this stupid dog?
Being abused?
Stop it already! un-elegant..
Damn that impudent not be able to take care of that dog.

My sis's out of town,
she went to her friend's house.
And left me.. all alone.. T.T
And now my phone snapped.
Can't sleep properly these nights,
the room feels weird.
But I did promise myself not to cry again.
=D

I need to study Chem experiments and Bio experiments.
But there's so many. I don't know which to start from/
Maybe I'll look through all of them?
Yes .. yes.. I'll do that.
xD

Damn that thief who took my stuff.
Just burn in hell for stealing. Impudent.

JW

14.5.2011 10.46pm-11.05pm

I suddenly remembered what I told Rabbit a long time ago.

I said I was afraid that I would lose my sense of drawing as I had accomplish a lot without going to art classes.

Now that i thought about it,

it wasn't much to be worried about.

haha. 

Because no matter how long I didn't draw for real,

I would draw it all over my exam papers.

So it didn't count as completely stopped drawing.

And too improve is to draw more people say.

Swt.. Actually to me, by observing people's drawing more,

lets me improvise them and improve even faster.

XD

I wonder when can I get a tablet.

I really wish I had one.

T.T

I hate bio!

=.= it won't go into my mind as easy as I read history.

How can that be???

So frustrating....

Oh and I had the most worst dream i dreamt.

well I can't say it here, cause it's so disgusting I want to puke when I think about it.

What a disgrace dreaming of that.

PUI PUI PUI!

*Buek!* 

OMG... Get out of my mind already. Disgusting being.

How can such a disgusting un-elegant being live on earth. 

*Urhk..

Why am I even thinking about it right now.

Go away go away.

better not dream about something like that ever again!

Giving me phobias.

urhk...

I think I'm gonna puke my supper.

JW

Jang Geun Suk

 ^^

No min Woo

>< wahahahhahaha!

JW

13.5.2011

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11.5.2011

It was raining heavily outside.
They were quarreling again.
Me and 'Jeremy-boy' kept staring at them while eating something.
Suddenly one of them snapped.
He say he wants to go out to buy something.
But it was raining heavily outside and thunder was striking everywhere.

The other boy follows him out.
'Jeremy-boy' and me quickly got up to stop them from going out.
They wouldn't listen, in fact he pushed me aside.
'Jeremy-boy' holds my arm before I fall,
we continue to chase them out of the house.

"Wait. wait! it's not a time to go out!" I said.
Another heavy thunder striked.
when I was nearly at the gate, the front porch was so steep.
And i was starting to slip.
'Jeremy-boy' puts his arms on his hips and stare at the two idiots continue to fight in the rain.
"Woah.. woah~" I tried to balance myself.

Finally I lost balance and slipped.
I grab on to 'Jeremy-boy' 's hand.
In the end we end up rolling down the porch together.
And I could taste the rain water.
*Puek!*

Boom! Another thunder striked.
And I popped open my eyes.
Yea another weird dream. haha.
I didn't dare to move. the thunder scared me. I continue to lay on my bed not moving.
It was 3.30pm.

'tap..tap..tap..'
I tighten my grip on my blanket.
'What was that?' I thought.
'tap..tap..tap..'
"Again?? what was that sound?" I gulp my salivar down
"No no no! I don't want any guardian angels! Go away go away!" I squeeze my eyes shut.
'tap..tap..'

I got up from my bed and look at the window.
Oh.. it was raining heavily, the rain water was hitting against my window.
I closed it and went out of my room.
'Whoosh~'
My whole face was wet.
I stare at the window outside my room.
It was all wet, the floor around it was also flooded with water.

I started to think about that stupid weird dream.
Must be watching too much korean drama.
Exactly 4 people. me with short hair in the dream.
A very cute setting, the furniture was very colourful.
I had such a busy mind I couldn't get to sleep with dreamless nights.

JW

7.5.11

MUHAHAHAHHAHAHAH!
YOU ALL JUST GOT PAWNED!
 =D

JW

5.5.2011 11.36PM

My friend suddenly wanted to play wm.
So i decided to go back and see my acc.
lol. he didnt take much but he is damn lady like.
XD 8-po.

He took the ride pet he gave me. @@
Aww.. now walking would be slower.. = (
He kicked me out of the guild too.
Well that's okay, cuz tht guild is as if like a ghost guild.
He was suppose to make me a better wp, yea he and his big mouth.

XD
Anyway I saw in his FB status today, he's got A GF!!!
>< wahahahahahhahahahaha!
a fat one. to be exact.=X
and i doubt that they know from wm too.
It must be, cuz he's such a loner, he definitely needs someone to acc him.

So much for 'without you I'd die'
Lies. thats why it was right not to trust him in the first place. wahaha~
I'm getting so many ulcers. one after another.
damn it's painful.
Well one healed and another came.
And this one was bleeding =.=
can ulcers bleed? weird.
no wonder it was so painful.

Duh.. I can live with it, 'what pain Have i not encounter before.'

=D

JW

4/5/2011 11.44PM

Ahh... spent a really boring day at school today. Along with my stupid allergy. Just feels worse. wahahaha. Lucky PS and G was there during recess. I got to chat with them for awhile. Like Sy said, you don't need to feel lonely, because just being alone allows us to do many other stuff. She was right after all. muahahaha~

I felt stupid when I thought of what I said today morning. XD Just because I wanted to skip school. Well it didn't work out anyway. So no harm done~ hehe..



This clothing I'm wearing cost RM93++ CAN YOU BELIEVE IT??

I like it, but for such a simple design to be that expensive, I can't accept. HAHA.. So i just took a picture of it and placed it back. =X

" No one can harm thou,
  If you were never torn. "


OK~ Gotta sleep.

JW

2-5-2011 1.07AM

I got my new hair cut. =D
Nah.. Nothing new, just a little trimmed. muahahaha~

 Check out my fringe~ XD
One thing.. The left side of my hair is really stubborn.
It always go the other side. No matter how I comb it backwards.
Wahaha. It's raining now outside I think.
Okay~ Gotta sleep.
Self praising~ Congratz in drawing your first 3Dimension Cartoon post.
Wishing myself luck~ Good luck in drawing better!
Wishing myself with hard work~ Wish you won't be slacking your time anymore. Start studying for real tomorrow! =D

JW