Will it turn out the way I wanted

I guess... My play time's over.. haha~

I've been fooling around with my studies last year,
I wonder if I could throw that laziness away this year,
Well I guess I really have to, if not I won't be able to go to college like what I dreamt.
I would suck to start working at young age while others are busy studying. I hate that feeling.
I gave up a precious object so that I could concentrate hard on studies more.
Hopefully it paid off.
I'm afraid.
I'm really scared.
What if it doesn't turn out the way I wanted.

I do hope he will  be still there with me as I push on.
He's busy lately. Studying for his exams.
If I could do last minute studies I really want to. But I'm trying to push myself to study after every chapter is taught.
Maybe It might be better this way.
I cannot study last minute, it's useless for me.

Discipline Jia wen... DISCIPLINE.
That's what I lack.

Work hard Jia wen. Work hard.. You can do it if you want to.
Lets hope it goes this way.

-Signed: JW-