The drive needed

After seeing one of my friend working so hard on something

It enlightened me.

I used to had such passion but I don't know when it was lost.

I gonna be more focus from now on.

Gotta motivate myself more like I used to.

Gotta find that drive needed.

But having something you're proud of

And being told that's nothing to be proud of

Doesn't exactly help motivate myself.

It makes me think. Why am I working hard

What is this for.

Making myself sick and tired and stressed.

Is it for myself 

Or is it just to fulfil her wishes.

...

What am I doing...

JW