The drive needed

After seeing one of my friend working so hard on something

It enlightened me.

I used to had such passion but I don't know when it was lost.

I gonna be more focus from now on.

Gotta motivate myself more like I used to.

Gotta find that drive needed.

But having something you're proud of

And being told that's nothing to be proud of

Doesn't exactly help motivate myself.

It makes me think. Why am I working hard

What is this for.

Making myself sick and tired and stressed.

Is it for myself 

Or is it just to fulfil her wishes.

...

What am I doing...

JW

Self realization

Everyone has like this bad attitude-habit thing.

Example,

Some would like to assume they are always better at anyone they meet.
Someone that I recently know gives off such aura.
Its pretty annoying. Really.
While that person's common sense suck till ur brain has oil and it saps through ur eyeballs.

Honestly, to everyone out there, when you think you are better than the others around you, be humble, and that'd make you perfect and also supports how proud you are about yourself.

Another example would be people who just lies about everything to their close ones.
They don't tell the truth, they don't want to be judge by these close people around them.
THey complain but dont take advice from them.
Please, the more you lie to them, the more they realize whatever you say is a lie,
they will doubt EVERYTHING you say in the future.
Till then they won't be as close as you think they are.
Because you failed to respect their existence.

Needless to say, I myself would have such attitude-habits.
I guess it's a more dark, cunning attitude-habits.
That you would take awhile to notice what is it.

JW