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JW

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Friday!!

My first attempt to vlog. Ripped that music from youtube.

Starting from my fresh morning to class, groceries then home.

JW

Summer Holiday Ends

Two months passed like that in Malaysia.

I really really don't want to leave.

In three days I will leave Malaysia again and continue cramming for my degree.

I guess I no longer feel reluctant to leave anymore.

Three weeks ago I was crying myself to sleep.

Thinking when I leave by myself.

Then I realized its like an adventure.

I should have some alone time and think about stuff throughout the 32 hours journey.

Time to grow up!

Throughout this journey back home,

I lost a friend.

And also became closer to some friends that i haven't been in touch with

Now I have no one to complain to when GX bullies me.

But anyway, i can live without complaining.

Life goes on.

Dyed my hair brown. 

Too brown. 

Really regretted.

Check out my brown hair. I really want it back black now. 

Oh and I was taking a picture with the Walls ice cream I missed so much.
Its chocolate flavoured. <3 p="">

:( 

My life

So recently one of my friend told me about an ex-classmate I had. So this ex-classmate of mine is became really popular among these years due to her looks.

Hum hum I almost din recognize her when I searched for her public profile. 

My god look at her make up and entire make over. Looked so different from her actual person. She's pretty yes of course. 

Me? Jealous? Yeah sure. I mean every girl wants to look pretty. Who doesn't? 

Well while this girl became so famous among the years I've been enrolled into my two different universities now, and while she spends her time with make up and cheap commercials, attention from every other person on Facebook, I spend my time starring at this...

Proving logic and coding.

Gaming
And Of Course..

Art.

For these past years,

Yeh sure I'm missing out on all these girly stuff. But hey my results are actually kind of great. Currently holding a cgpa of 3.9. 

That's when I feel better and not too jealous. Haha. Go jia wen's future! 

Wen

Finals arriving

So stressed... So ready to go home but it feels like I have so much to do before I can relax. 

So stressed.

The drive needed

After seeing one of my friend working so hard on something

It enlightened me.

I used to had such passion but I don't know when it was lost.

I gonna be more focus from now on.

Gotta motivate myself more like I used to.

Gotta find that drive needed.

But having something you're proud of

And being told that's nothing to be proud of

Doesn't exactly help motivate myself.

It makes me think. Why am I working hard

What is this for.

Making myself sick and tired and stressed.

Is it for myself 

Or is it just to fulfil her wishes.

...

What am I doing...

JW

Self realization

Everyone has like this bad attitude-habit thing.

Example,

Some would like to assume they are always better at anyone they meet.
Someone that I recently know gives off such aura.
Its pretty annoying. Really.
While that person's common sense suck till ur brain has oil and it saps through ur eyeballs.

Honestly, to everyone out there, when you think you are better than the others around you, be humble, and that'd make you perfect and also supports how proud you are about yourself.

Another example would be people who just lies about everything to their close ones.
They don't tell the truth, they don't want to be judge by these close people around them.
THey complain but dont take advice from them.
Please, the more you lie to them, the more they realize whatever you say is a lie,
they will doubt EVERYTHING you say in the future.
Till then they won't be as close as you think they are.
Because you failed to respect their existence.

Needless to say, I myself would have such attitude-habits.
I guess it's a more dark, cunning attitude-habits.
That you would take awhile to notice what is it.

JW

New year, New semester

Third day of my new semester. Felt like it was already one week. One hour of some random carrot head talking can make me feel like dying. 

So much homework. Just by saying this makes my brain go on automatic check list mode again. Cis 301, cis 308, phys 224, cis 501.....

Ugh......

Then there's something that's bugging me, 

It's a really nice friend,(well in my head I think she is)

Suddenly I felt like she doesn't think I'm as close as I think we are.

It's really sad. A bit pathetic. 

Sigh.....

JW