Gastric

Young girls posting in facebook about gastric.
Having the pain?
Want some attention from friends?
You don't even know how gastric really feels
HOw the pain feels.
Stupid girls.

Back to my sensitivity

I guess I was just being sensitive again.

The other day I went out with some friends to watch a movie.
I drove quite far just to see them.
I thought I would have a great time.
I was so wrong.
lol..
I didn't feel well in the middle of the movie.
The back of my head hurts.
I kept drinking water trying to wash away the blurriness.

Then the movie was over and i thought they would say bye bye and we all go home. yay.

erm. Wrong again.

See i parked my car near to the cinema's exit.
One of the boys knew.
But they were wandering off and didn't even say, ok we're leaving now.
You don't expect me to tail them right?
If I really did, they'd be like, I thought your car is parked there, why are you following us.
At that particular time i will feel like I'm being damned.

I wasn't feeling good at all that moment.
My legs feel weak the back of my head hurts wherever i look,
my gastric is attacking and i can feel the acid building up in my stomach.

And none of them even gives a damn to even say, ok we're leaving now.
I'm not waiting for a girly bye bye or anything.
I'm waiting for a sign to say, ok this is it for today,
What the hell. I stood behind them as they trailed even further from me.

I shouted a few times . 'oi, woi.'
Yup nobody cared to turn around and look.
I was so ready to turn away and leave but i was in such a blur and sick state i couldn't.
Every time they do this it reminds me how much I hated subang.
how much i hated the people there.

i guess i won't go out with them anymore.
Not even one more time.
Enough. You boys and your selfish thoughts.

JW

relationships

I don't understand why...
The people I loved before I now hate.
The love I once gave to them they don't appreciate.
When I stopped the love given to them.
They turn around and do all sorts of things to get my heart back.
It's so heart sickening.
Why didn't they just appreciate me and I don't cry to much then?

Why make me go through so much mental stress?
Why make me cry myself to sleep?
Why make me cry fighting with them?
Why make me remember the sick memories with them?

And the people I love.
They either don't know it,
pretend not to know,
distance away from me,
or ignore it.

It's so stressful.
I just sometimes hope I'm like a zombie without feelings,
just as one of my friend once said.
it's just so heart sickening.

And I'm now crying alone in front of my laptop.
With my damp fingers tapping on this keyboard..
Technology you're always.. always the only one with me.

And lastly..
Why am i always the only one that walks alone behind the crowd.
I just want to smile like i really mean to.

JW

Count Down

 Arriving KLCC.
Kinda regret going there for count down.
Horrible experience.
Shld have went to desa park city.
=..=

But it doesnt matter eh?
I FINALLY GOT THE BOOK.
OHHH WAITING FOR THE MOVIE NOW.
warm booodiieessss..

Its too far for me to snap.
Look closely. so many polices.
And I really don't know what are they there for, when they are just standing around.

So damn crowded and many shit ass smoking.
It was like torture.
Just horrible experience. -.-

JW