I realized the people around me are of these types:
- they take and never ask
- they take and never appreciate
- they take and blame
- they're here when they need help, but gone when they don't need any.
- they forget and never appreciate
- they couldn't care less anything else except for themselves
I guess i'm hugging my dear pillow and with my blanket absorbing my tears to sleep again.
I misjudged. I seem to always do that recently.
And so I thought my brilliant brain is that intelligent,
i was wrong.
I misjudged,
i made a wrong choice.
I regret..
I'm sorry I couldn't bow down and apologize for what I didn't do.
If I did, it would be a lie.
And I couldn't push myself to lie to you any longer.
curious, how could the previous one last so long, when it is even harder to swallow than what is happening now.
I appreciate too much. I couldn't let go of someone who loves me,
but in the same time, hurts me. That should answer my curiosity.
Was i.. wrong?
Am i.. wrong?
I shouldn't have started.
Look at me,
i'm torturing myself and another at the same time now.
Both personalities that won't give way.
He who posses a prince's attitude,
and me with a princess's.
I shouldn't have accepted.
It would have hurt less,
if he had just said sorry,
and tell me not to be sad,
That would be enough.
He continuously asking ridiculous questions,
saying ridiculous things,
making me even more angry.
He asked me what did I want him to do.
He apologized, what did I want more.
He asked so.
I would want to ask him the same thing.
What do you want me to do instead?
I kept quiet keeping all thoughts only to myself.
Or it will turn into a fight.
I'm just so...ridiculous.
"intelligent" brain I have there.
I feel much more better now.
But not having someone to listen,
just makes me feel really...
lonely..
Like.. no one is there for me.
Like.. there's really no one at all..
Just my imagination...
and me..
We stand.. alone.
JW
