You guys bug and scolded me.
I'm alright. It was my fault after all.
I studied. Then game.
As what you will tell me to do.
The college is far enough for me.
You guys tell me to should have go get a train there.
and settle it myself.
If it wasn't that far, i'd go,
if it wasn't full of shitty services there, I'd go.
If it wasn't because of the fucking train that would delay or cancel as they please,I'd fucking go.
If it was filled with my friends, I'd go.
Now i pay the price again for not going,
today.
you got angry.
you scolded me. again.
you blame me for not staying back there.
you let it out on the way you drive.
i'm fine.
I'm alright. it was MY FAULT after all.
And you said,
why do I always like to rush home and hide.
thats not the way.
i should stay with my friends,
talk about what subjects to take properly and not rush.
and you said,
going out with CL and my FRIENDS. IS RUBBISH.
u said. 是废的。
to you, yea it is. there not you're friends, i don;t fucking blame you.
talk and talk and talk.
scold go ahead scold.
you said, i'm growing up.
i should know how to make decisions.
I swallowed my pride,
and for the first time in my life.
I actually meant to apologize to you.
I said Sorry.
And you were like.
"I couldn't hear it. what the fuck are you saying? JUST LISTEN TO ME."
that's why i NEVER thought of apologizing to teachers,
i NEVER thought i would work.
because as far as i can remember,
i remember you making me say sorry.
and you still get pissed after that.
so what's the point.
doesn't matter now does it?
I'm never going to apologize.
NEVER.
because what I will get is
being ignored,
and humiliation,
thats what.
i learnt today.
take the train?
WHY DON'T YOU TAKE THE FUCKING TRAIN HUH?
what do you do at home?
why do you like to hide at home?
(BEFORE I COULD ANSWER)
"You'd just play the computer!"
And that fucking hurts. IT JUST HURTS.
I RATHER DON'T STUDY NOW.
THANKS TO YOUR POSITIVE REINFORCEMENTS.
I GAME. I DON'T STUDY. I FUCKING EAT SLP AND GAME.
There was a big truck beside us when you were yapping away.
And all i could think off is.
Hit me you fucking truck I'm so ready to leave this planet.
Oh you're busy? with work?
I'm busy too. woi!? what's the matter with you?
My finals is coming up! the fuck!??
you throw your temper at me because you'r busy with work?
am I being a roadblock to you now?
THEN DON'T BLOODY BRING ME TO THIS WORLD.
What's wrong with you woi?!
Yes maybe sorry wasn't enough.
But I'm not a fairy, this is my first time.
I screw up yea congratulate me go on. With your yaps and blabs.
Do you think I can return your time that you've lost?
Do you think that I wanted this to happen?
Do you think that I don't know you'r busy?
You don't have to say things that are so fucking mean do you?
DO YOU?
I thought studying will make you happy enough.
Now you're pissed cuz I don't know how to be a perfect human?
No wonder sis hates you.
NO WONDER.
So thats what you're thinking huh?
I'm not studying in a study week.
I'm playing games,
going out with my fuck friends as u described as "废"
sleeping, eating, watching anime,
laughing my ass off,
enjoying my fucking time all day huh?
throughout the week huh?
Well think all you want
I can't do anything to change your mind anyway.
think all you want.
...
diu.
JW
