Emo again

In this colourful world..
Where everyone is colourful.
It felt like I'm the only one staying colourless.

JW

Christmas Eve

I failed my 'undang' yesterday.
I really was frustrated. Because i failed on 41.
I FINALLY PASSED today. :D
It was harder than the first time i took the exam.
And he gave me another present today~
Like every year he would on christmas.
Only that he won't be in the country tomorrow.
He gave it to me.
He was waiting outside my house when i just had my LATE lunch.
Thanks to the driver at the driving school.
^^
just happy. muahahahahah~

JW

Soul has return?

You made me cry in my dreams.
NOW YOU MAKE ME CRY IN MY SLEEP!
I missed you. indeed. but.
You paid a visit to my sister the night after you left.
But not me!
Now you choose to haunt my dreams??
I don't know what made you so angry that you would return.
But this is not the way to solve it.
I'm really sad to see you like this.
Mocking every inch of the family in my dreams.
It HURTS.

Though you won't be seeing this.
I just wrote it out or i'd go nuts!
I love you no matter what.
But.. please don't get upset.

..
I love you.

JW

Future?

The future is not to be controlled as please easily.
The future. is not as friendly as it seems.
Nevertheless... the future...does not wait.

Dad: Now you start to see people have to study hard. Now you see it.

No.. What I saw was... How hard life was.
Dad, you are a very successful man.
I really mean it. For that I solemnly bow down to you.
I can't help he says, it's not my place to help.
It's totally out of hand. Totally ... helpless.

I take back what i said about how beautiful the future is,
if you pray it to be,
if you wish it to be,
if you believe it to be.

Stories say they end with living happily ever after.
That's another lie.
No.
Stories do end well.
But Life is not a story.
Life is...
the truth of all sorts.
the pain of all thoughts.
and it is unstoppable until you draw your last breath.

Frustrating.
Depressed.

For the first time.
I couldn't help when i wanted to.

JW

dec 1

wen: i went out today.. my legs are killing me...

rin: lol. bought anything/

wen: a cool bracelet. and a muffler.. look i made a sketch of today. from left : KC , me, Bro

you can right click on the image and open it in another window. it's bigger that way. much clearer..
really moody now.. weird..

JW