28/7/11 0018

Did I... really misunderstood her?
If she..'s telling the truth.. where's the proof?
Her bunch of friends are scolding me...
Or.. is it characters that she created?

it is said that a liar answers the questions asked in 0 sec,
the truth comes out from 1-2 sec.
She failed that test today.
My friend ask if her so call 'COCOTAN' is from what school,
how she met her.
She reply every question like it was already written on paper.
Like she'd memorised it.

Lol.
and the question comes again.
Did I misunderstood her? Did I?

Well I blocked her, then my sis was looking at her stuff.
So i accidentally saw it too.
After that my mood was like crap.
Ahh.. its okay... even if my friends don't stand up for me,
I stand up for them. I've done my part. Its okay..
I'll cry it over.
I'll get over it. It's okay.. it's okay..

Buddies this are for you:

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.

^^

I hope i cure fast.

I'm too sensitive. that's all. it'll be okay..

JW

24.7.2011 2106

lol!
ZE BLOCKED ME ON FB!
XDDDD
Am I that intimidating?
lol! Its like a cat and a mouse game!
geh..
She better not disturb KC again.
She messaged him today.

Message content:
Hey,2moro i dnt wanna explain 2 them, they ad set im tat kind of person in their heart so i dnt tink they wil believe in me anymore, juz can blame i didnt say properly wat im trying 2 say la, n sry 4 wat i write in ur post n thx 4 believe me n b4 let i b 1 of ur gang

And she wrote stupid stuff in her b4,
then b4 i know it she blocked me,
i can even kick her out of my friend list if i want to.
But what's the point.

She say she thought we knew her,
we were really close friends that we would understand her.

Correction for her:
1# We are NEVER CLOSE. Not me and her.
2# It's not all of us that don't wanna listen to her blarh, some of my friends might listen, but she puts me as the leader. Real dumb blond.
3# Sorry I don't know her and never knew what a person she is except for a 'flirt-ter'.
4#And i also know that YOU ARE A FAKER! =D
5#I NEVER MISUNDERSTOOD YOU. I UNDERSTAND.
6#It's not the first time you made me angry.

phew.. i told KC if she messages him again, tell me.
I'll tell her off myself.
KC has already enough trouble in his head.
She's making things hard for him.
that was making me really angry.
=.=

urhh! annoying !
BIATCHE!

=.=

chill chill~~
Anyway she says she has friends to talk to.
GO GO~
don't disturb KC dy.
*sigh*

She left SY alone for a few times during in school.
Sticking to others.
That pissed me off too.
She flirts without controlling herself.
THAT PISSES ME OFF 2!
She likes to stick to others playing close.
THAT PISSES ME OFF 3!
She likes to PRETEND!
THAT PISSES ME OFF 4!!!!


There's so many things that she does makes me so angry I try to avoid her so that I won't scold her in the face.
I've done my part enough.

我已忍够了！
我忍够你喜欢扮可爱扮可怜的丑样子！
真让人讨厌！！！！！！！
开心啦？
我限度已到了。 开心吗？？

人类做的东西翻有第一次，一定会有第二次！
keep that in mind sucker.

JW

Outting with fren pic~

Here it is!!! XDDD

JW

23.7.2011 1845

Ahh I just came back from a one day trip with my friends,
this trip was meant to celebrate my birthday.
^^ I'm glad most of them showed up.
I was so worried that most of them won't come.

Last night close midnight KC was back talked by ZE.
He was really pissed.
I was pissed.
But I was angry not entirely because of what she said.
It's because I know KC has emotionally problems,
this idiot adds more salt to the situation.

She even made some stupid statements to one of my schoolmate.
IS SHE BRAINLESS OR WHAT???
SHE ALWAYS FLIRT AROUND ME ALREADY MADE ME HATE HER.
I JUST DIDN'T SHOW HER CUZ I WAS AFRAID I MIGHT HURT HER IF I WAS TOO STRAIGHT TOWARDS HER.

BLOODY HELL!

WHAT'S SHE TRYIN TO PULL HUH?

I said a few things not to accuse ppl on FB,
then she told KC she doesn't want to go the next day,
The good thing is she's not going,
the other thing is a problem,
SY can't go without her.
Lucky me and KC got a way to get SY to go.
URHHHH>>>
I'M DONE TRYING TO PLAY NICE!

Anyway, we did many fun stuff today.
=D
We messed up our dining place during lunch,
showed off our lenses to each other,
which we all got them new.
YH can't put it in it was so funny.
But finally he was able to with KC's guidance.

My eyes are sore now,
because of the lens i guess,
i've been wearing them whole day,
just took them off.
now My sight is blurry,
gotta go nap later.
hopefully my eyes recover.
I'll post photos up of today when my friend post it up on FB,
i can save them down and post them here.
Gotta go. Don't wanna face the comp too long.

^^

UUUUURRRHHHH~~ BAD LAST NIGHT!

ARRHHHH!!! HAPPY TO-DAY~~

JW

21-7-2011 2316

Ahhh a few more minutes it's my birthday.
I GOT CONTACT LENSES!!
It was a pain trying to put them in. -.-
But I DID IT! =D
I bought grey my sis bought purple.
She's a bit frustrated she can't put them in.
I feel bad not be able to help. ==
She has to learn to put them in herself,
if i help her she wont know how to do it herself.

I hope nothing bad happens tomorrow.
And... I really wish to improve my drawing skills.
Sat my friends are gonna help me celebrate my b'day.
I decided to wear a bit more girlie than usual. =D

Sigh...
I feel really weird...
KC is a 'normal student' now.
So he asked me to accompany him at the pondok every recess.
I mean I'm cool with it anyway.
But many others came.
That's when I felt .. left out again.
Ahh... I so sensitive...

But even though I hated WM's scary cat attitude or so call,
attracting my attention then ignore me like he don't give a damn attitude.
But whenever I thought of him,
the sweet things he done,
the cute and shy look of his,
the way he talked to me,
the questions he asked,
always cheered me up.
Thank you WM.
I will personally thank you,
i will try to spare some time to make you a star bottle,
whom my close friends and qualified people for me are to recieve them,
hand made gifts.
^^ i just hope I have the time.
THANK YOU.

This is a drawing of Chibi of Ader Raven.
Its drawn for the competition at egscans art competition,
they placed a strict rule =.= that scared me
My last drawing posted there,
people misunderstood it for a YAOI drawing. T.T ITS NOT!
The rule was : NO YAOI!
walao..
I really hope to improve my colouring and drawing.. but how..
I WILL PRACTICE! I WILL IMPROVE!
I WILL SHOW YOU!

 Check out my lens.

JW

1400 14.7.2011

She's getting more and more like a pest!
OOooo! ANNOYING!
Ya go ahead and throw me around like a broken doll.
And the way you talk about others is way more poisonous than i do.
i really wonder if there is karma for this type of behavior.
I wonder why she's treating me like this.
Is it the jealousy of something outta my life?
And the more I think I'm damn lucky my legs are not as fat as hers.
FAT ASS!
I always felt betrayed!
Why do this to me!

"Machinery and hair products are my best friend,
Their betrayal is not that painful,
Humans are dangerous and poisonous beings,
They LIE they poke words in sentences that hurts,
I'm poisonous in my own way,
But not in a way that would harm one,"

USE YOUR BLOODY MUTATED BRAIN TO THINK BEFORE YOU DECIDE TO SAY ANYTHING!
YOU THINK YOU'RE ALL THAT?
NO YOU'RE NOT! THINK AGAIN BLOODY MUTATED BRAIN FREAK!
AAARRRGHHHH!!! ANNOYING!

JW

2328 11/7/2011

What has become of my country....
I'm really sad to see this...


Really.. sad..
*sigh
Why are they making such a fuss out of this?
Are there so much to hide?
It made me felt like hitting someone.
I hope someone dares to make a puching face game with Najib's face on it.

And.. this video is just telling many to not believe in the polices. ANYMORE.
Polices open wide their eyes and LIE.
开大眼睛说谎话。
你们的妈妈没教你们么？
说谎要切舌头的！
你们这些蓝色的狗很想试试吧！
Where the truth is all over the net.
What is it to hide?
Its no more the old citizens.
It's the fearless Malaysians now.
Bite on that PM.
Bite it hard.

Jangan buat buat tak tau.
Kamu buat tak tau buat gila takpe.
Citizen mu TAHU.

oooooo!!!
I'm feeling so pissed right now!
But I can't do ANYTHING!
=.=
*sigh..
Harm the innocent,
burn in hell,
burn in well.

This is not a small matter anymore,
whoever thought to heal this problem,
is making it worse,
now Malaysia is all over world wide news if not mistaken,
supporters are also all over outside of Malaysia.
GILA SIAL.
cheh.

UNDERSTAND THE CONSEQUENCES.












JW

dream

It was quite long ago I dreamt this.
But I remember this the most.
I was rescuing a snail being eaten from a cat.
Then the cat...
mutates right in front of me.
HAHA..

Interesting..

9.7.2011 - 3.50pm

Ahh... interesting.
A very shy kid from my class.
I don't really put any attention of what he do.
But I came across of his profile pic in Facebook.
All I wanted to do was to click in and like it.
But then I started browsing his other pictures.
Some shots of him were really nice.
He seems photogenic. o.o

The cute hair patch and the nose patch.
So cute.
He's really shy in front of others,
and mostly sleeps in class.
But not in the photos.
Cool.
I like his personality. =D really.. INTERESTING.

Then I came to a thought:
Does he have a blog?


And the next thing I know was clicking on his info tab on his Facebook page.
Ahh.. There really is a blog.
But only a recent one.
He doesn't write much in it.
And one of his recent blog pose was about the memory of losing the girl he loved a lot.
Ahh I somehow felt really bad for him.

-

I went jogging today morning.. ==
It's my only way out from going to that stupid cadet activity.
OH JUDY!~
I hate seeing annoying faces.
Anyway. Consider me as an anti social person.
I'm starting to worry how am I going to mix around with the people i meet at college next time.
*sigh
The places I love best are less people around.

Best:  In front of my computer, in the middle of the night.
no one watches you or cares what you do,
ignoring if there was a presence of a soul,


But come to think of it,
I some times feel lonely too.

I feel much more comfortable drawing when no one's around me.

My recent sketches.
I'm gonna go sketch a part of my weird dream that I'm gonna put up.

JW

8.7.2011

Oh JUDY...
给人放了飞机的感觉超...speechless.

6/7/2011

Breathing heavily...
Openning my eyes..
blue ceiling comes to view.
I quickly got up.
realizing i was in my uniform and a big aquarium is actually inside the marble ground of my weird surroundings.
I continue to breathe heavily.
Starting to worry where am I.
Suddenly realize CH was beside me.
I asked if I could leave.
Then I slowly realize I was surrounded by XH's classmates, her friends.
They gave me disgusted looks.
Like they were annoyed by my presence.

CH say I can leave by diving into the big aquarium.
The aquarium was filled with weird fishes.
Suddenly another lady appears from behind.
She throws a dead body into the water.
A fish looking animal in the water charges at the corpse's head.
it sucks it clean leaving a clean up at the neck of the body.

CH slowly disappears.
So are the others.

I wake.

A quick sketch of my dream.