29-3-2011

I..
I don't know how to put this.
I..I just realize things i do is quite far from being appreciated.
Or is it just me mixing with the wrong people..
What is it..
Worse of it, is it.. just me.

I think I should start to be less like myself in front of these people.
Wasting efforts. No. It wasn't even an effort.
It was just me being kind and without realizing it myself.
Stupid.stupid.

Pardon me. I should only choose to be whom i am to whom it may be concern.
Ridiculous.

Jw

March 22 2010

March 23 12.10am

It was raining.
I slowly walked into the school feeling like sleeping was the best thing to do on earth.
Xiao Hei was standing in a corner with her bunch if classmates.
I couldn't recognize her with my blurry eye sight.
I saw her smiling, then I smile back.
By slowly realizing that was her.

She turned back facing her friends.
No point for me to approach.
I walked all the way to the girls restroom.
As expected, I saw CL there.
She was surrounded by her friends.
I walked over. She couldn't see me i guess, so i walked aside.
I stood and leaned against the sign boards on the walkway.

I wasn't sure what I was thinking and so upset about till now.
No. Til yesterday evening.
My result.
Now thinking that, I'm quite childish.
Feeling sad and beaten by my own result.
All from my own cause.
But I still can't find a way to think or feel better.
And I can't sleep, keeping my eyes wide open starring at the ceiling awhile ago.
I decided to come down to write my blog.
Since it's quite worthless writing it. haha.
Better than lying on my bed thinking so hard.

Nothing is better than feeling sorry for yourself.

Jw

Quotes

Believe in what you are,
Thrive within your soul!
Thou shall exists in a better place,
Even with the whole year round cold.

=.= JW

Back Together

We're back together again.
But I don't feel the same anymore.
Something is missing.
Eventhough he's been treating me much better.
I wonder why...